Selena Gomez’s mother, Mandy Teefey, feared for her daughter’s life when she learned the popstar was having a nervous breakdown during her Revival tour in 2016.
“We heard about her nervous breakdown via TMZ. They called me and wanted to know what my daughter was doing in the hospital with a nervous breakdown,” Teefey recalled in Gomez’s upcoming Apple TV+ documentary, “My Mind & Me,” which will be released on Friday. “She didn’t want anything to do with me and I was afraid she was going to die.”
Gomez, 30, who has worked as a child star since she was 7, shares raw and rare insight into her battle with mental health issues, a lupus-induced kidney transplant and a bipolar diagnosis in the upcoming documentary , filmed over the course of six years by “Truth or Dare” director Alek Keshishian.
“Let me make you a promise. I will only tell you my darkest secrets,” Gomez says in a voiceover reading his diary. She delivers in the first half hour. An early scene from 2016 shows the singer struggling with body image issues while rehearsing for her Revival World tour, lamenting that she doesn’t want to look like a “12-year-old boy” moments before the camera cuts. a panorama of itself. -acceptance click on “Who said”. Viewers watch as the singer sinks further into self-confidence issues regarding her performance.
“The pressure is just overwhelming because I want to do my best,” Gomez said, crying hysterically. Moments later, she asks, “When am I going to be good enough on my own?” When am I going to be good just by myself without needing to be associated with anyone,” referring to her duet with ex Justin Bieber.
After 55 performances, Gomez canceled her Revival Tour due to issues with anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. Rumors swirled that she had a drug problem.
“At some point she was like, ‘I don’t want to be alive right now. I don’t want to live,'” Gomez’s former assistant Theresa Mingus, who worked with the star between 2014 and 2018 according to his LinkedIn profile.
“It was one of those times where you look her in the eye and there’s nothing to it. It was just pitch black. And it’s so scary. You’re like okay, f—k that This has to stop, we have to go home,” she says.
Gomez’s mother was gutted when her daughter sought treatment at a mental health facility.
“You hang on as hard as you can and try to help them with their treatment and that’s the hardest thing to do. Then go to bed and hope they wake up the next day,” she says.
In another voice-over diary entry, Gomez sadly confesses, “My thoughts often take over my mind. It hurts when I think about my past. I want to know how to breathe again. Do I love myself?
Gomez’s health issues date back to 2014, when she first sought treatment at a rehabilitation center in Arizona for her diagnosis of lupus. In 2016, she again went to rehab for anxiety and depression in Tennessee in the middle of her Revival World Tour, prompting her to cancel remaining tour dates. A year later, she got a kidney transplant from her best friend, Gomez revealed. Still struggling with her mental health after her transplant, Gomez sought therapy again in 2018 and later that year was hospitalized with a low white blood cell count.
After a break from the scene, the documentary picks up with Gomez in 2019 when she reveals she has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
“I’ll be honest, I didn’t want to go to a mental hospital,” she said. ” I did not want. But I didn’t want to be trapped in myself anymore, in my mind. I thought my life was over. I was like, ‘This is how I’m gonna be forever.’